Since I've started working outside the home, my cardmaking has become more simplistic in nature because I just want to get some cards done to sell. Gone are the days my cards are over-the-top beautiful, which is typical when you work on design teams. You should see some of the cards I've made lately (hopefully someday you will since I spent some time this morning taking pictures of them all)...whew, are they boring. I think it's just this stage of life I'm in...new job/no time, major stresses, kids...you know the score. I'm not finding alot of joy in it anymore...which bums me out! I hope that changes soon, because for a very long time, creating has been central to who I am.
I do have lots on my mind lately. This is a pivotal week for us as a family. At midnight on Wednesday (3/31), we lose our health insurance, and it makes me sick to think about it. We have been trying to find coverage elsewhere, but so far, no luck. One of the policies we were looking at denied the boys coverage this week, and I am anticipating they will be denying Doug and I as well soon. You see, we all have existing conditions, and insurance companies don't want to take you on with existing conditions. It made me so sad to read the letter telling us the boys were being denied coverage this week. I've never shared this before on my blog, but both my boys have ADHD. And since they take medication to help them in school, the insurance companies don't want anything to do with them. I know there is a cesspool of public opinion on medicating your children for ADHD. But I could careless. It actually was one of the best decision we ever made for our boys, because it has allowed them to learn and succeed in school just like any other kid. We use it responsibly, and they have reaped the rewards. We have never allowed them to use their ADHD as an excuse for not achieving their dreams. To think that now it's possible my boys won't be able to take medication to help them just pisses me off. Sure, we can pay out-of-pocket for the meds, but have any of you priced ADHD medication lately? It's upwards of $500 for a 30 day supply. And they both take it. So we are left with the decision to A.) go into serious debt to buy the meds ourselves, or B.) stop giving it to them. I want to cry my eyes out when I think we might be forced to do the latter.
For now, we've got a 90 day supply of medication left for the boys. That's 3 months. We are hoping and praying Doug's part-time job turns into full time within these upcoming three months. Otherwise, I don't know what we'll do. We plan on buying some student insurance through the school to cover them should anything happen to them in sports, but that won't solve our meds issue. So if I'm absent from my blog here and there over the next few months, you'll know why. I'm either too bummed out to blog, or I'll be out searching for a new full time job to get my family medical insurance. It's not something I want to do, but I feel at this juncture I have no choice.
Sorry to have dumped all this depressing news on you, but I just felt the need to get it off my chest. I've been holding it in so long it hurts. Your continued prayers would be greatly appreciated.